Cactus Dreams

When I was a kid I thought the desert was ugly. Really? What was I thinking? Now I get so excited about how many species of cactus I see here in The Baja.

Cactus dreams are mine.

 

Cactus Sunrise

 

Cactus Sunset

 

The one on the right above is from an agave that puts out this last bit of fun before it dies. We used it for a Christmas tree last year and we like it so much we kept it in front (without the lights). The one on the left is a yucca.

Below are two agave “trees” that are coming out of a couple small agaves.

 

 

 

Speaking of lights, we took them from the agave bloom and put them around our cardons in the front. Pretty cool, huh? Cardon cactus (scientific name: Pachycereus pringlei) are native to northwestern Mexico in the states of Baja California, Baja California Sur. (“Sur” means “South”)  It is the tallest cactus species known, with a record height of 63′ tall. It is similar, but not the same as, the saguaro cactus found in the Sonoran Desert in Arizona.

The ones below are on the side of my house. We have several cardon in our yard. They make great perches for the birds too.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lately I have been painting little pictures of cardon. I was inspired by one of my photos to do this one:

 

Here’s the photo I used:

 

The ones below are growing into quite a clump, which is very common around here.

 

The first time we drove down The Baja, seeing the cactus was mesmerizing to us–the shapes, the sizes, colors, how they grow in such a desolate landscape. The varieties of cactus are endless, and I know only a fraction of what’s out there. The next few photos are from Cataviña on our drive on The Baja.

 

 

 

 

 

This last one in Cataviña is my favorite. It looks like a water color to me. Maybe I’ll attempt to paint this one.

Several of the cactus grow into funny shapes. We say they are “morphed.” I have no idea what causes this strange thing to happen to them. Diversity is everywhere. The one directly below is a pitaya that has morphed into this funny shape.

The next ones are morphed cardon.

 

Cactus are like people. Some of them are pricks and the next thing you know they blossom.

 

 

Here are some of my tries at painting these amazing plants.

 

The ones with the orange flowers are called tuna cactus. The ones with yellow blooms are nopales. I’ve had the paddles from them in salad. So yummy. You can eat the fruit too.

 

This gorgeous flowers above are growing on a pitaya, or organ pipe.

 

It always amazes me how cactus can grow in such rocky places.

Above is a cardon standing alone at Balandra Bay in La Paz.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I no longer believe the desert is ugly. It’s full of the most crazy, cool cactus and critters. My life is full of cactus dreams.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Whale Watching and More

A trip to Lopez Mateo in Magdalena Bay gave us more to love about the Baja. The experience was exactly what we wanted, with much more than whales to see. Magdalena Bay is on the Pacific side and after a peaceful morning with whales and dolphins, the boat dropped us off we had a short hike on the dunes to get to the ocean.

 

 

 

 

There are a family of coyotes who live on the dunes. There is no source of fresh water, so they rely on dew on the vegetation. I was surprised at how large they are. There must be a lot to eat.

 

We searched for treasures and found some. These are the largest sand dollars I’ve ever seen.

 

 

We made the trip with Carlos and Paula who own and operate the Todos Santos Surf Shop and Explora Baja. We’ve done the whale shark trip with them several times, but this is the first time for Mag Bay. It’s such an up close look at the gray whales. Our oldest son and his wife came from Florida to visit and we treated them to this side trip. It’s about a six hour drive, but Carlos drove and we had the comfort of a big van. The hotel we stayed in served delicious meals. The evening meal was lobster. Oh my! What a treat.

Our daughter-in-law loves to have her photo taken while she jumps for joy. What a delight.

 

Hearing the whales spout, seeing their tales, and being so close to these creatures gave us thrills.

 

 

 

The mangroves are something to see too. Lots of birds thrive here.

 

 

 

 

The sights and sounds of Magdalena Bay will be with us forever. We’ll definitely go again.

 

 

 

 

Dolphins show off!

The sunrise from our hotel room balcony was beautiful.

 

Memories are made of this.

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you for not driving on the beach!

 

 

I didn’t make this sign or put it in the public access by my house, but I am thrilled that someone did. Zona de Anidacion means Nesting Zone. But it is more than nesting that makes me so unhappy about people driving on the beach. What about the baby turtles as they hatch? It’s hard enough for them to make it to their ocean home going over all the footprints and beer cans and plastic bottles and other plastic crap that people leave on the beach.

Going over tire tracks is a major hurdle for these precious little ones. I’ve seen them as they fall into the rut and end up on their backs struggling to right themselves. It’s bad enough that some dogs dig up nests, and the birds eat the babies as they attempt to get to the sea and crabs eat the eggs in the nest. At least those last two I mentioned are nature at its finest.

But cars and trucks on the beach? Why? Because it’s Mexico and you can do anything you want and get away with it? No rules? You left your brain at home? You left your manners at home? You don’t care?

 

Yesterday I stopped a fisherman from driving his truck over a bunch of baby turtles. I went screaming and waving my arms in his path yelling, “No! No!” As he got closer I reached down and picked up one of the turtles and held it up for the fisherman to see. He got out of his truck and saw for himself all the turtles…must have been about 40 of them right there in front of him. Had I not stopped him, he would have driven over them in his full sized truck.

To his credit, he got right with it, picking up the babies and putting them closer to the water. Maybe that’s not the right thing to do either, but it’s better than driving all over them. He took photos with his phone and I offered to take his photo with the turtles. His smile with those little ones made my morning. We spent a lot more time watching the waves roll up and over them a few times before they finally made it out to swim. The fisherman never did continue driving, rather turned around and went off the beach.

I can’t help but think that if people who drive all over the beach would see this miracle hatching or females laying eggs, that they would stop taking their vehicles on the beach. Maybe that is too optimistic, but I’ve always been more of an optimist than a pessimist. Lack of knowledge about the impact their driving causes has to be one reason they don’t stop.

 

All those black dots are babies heading to the water.

 

These are the mother turtle tracks from coming up to nest and then going back to the water.

And in case you didn’t see my previous post, here is a mother turtle covering her nest. We came upon her early one morning. What a blessing to see this miracle.

I hope this short video of the babies heading to the water will buffer quickly for you.

I promise it is worth your time.

You miss many wonderful things driving on the beach. Here are some things I’ve come upon during my walks.

 

 

All collected one morning on the beach. Find the seahorse?

Just standing still for awhile to watch the waves, and turning toward the mountains and see the sunrise are two examples.

An eel washed up.

 

But it is more than that. The peaceful feelings, the wonder, or the magic won’t be yours as you roar down the beach in your vehicle.

Sunrise seen today as I walked on the beach.

 

Please don’t drive on the beach. The turtles need your help.

 

HPV Causes Cancer–HPV The Silent Epidemic

Attention. I need your attention. Especially if you are a parent. Children between the ages of 11 and 12 need the human papilloma virus vaccine.

https://www.nbcnews.com/health/health-news/silent-epidemic-cancer-spreading-among-men-n811466

Who knew? There is an epidemic of head and neck cancer among men. It’s caused by the human papilloma virus (HPV) and anyone who has been sexually active in his or her lifetime may have it. It is very common.  Some doctors believe HPV is as common as the cold virus. This is the virus that was dormant in Greg for years (no symptoms) and why he grew a tumor on his tonsil that was stage 4 squamous cell carcinoma. There are so many men affected by HPV that is causing throat cancer that it is considered an epidemic.

Please, if you have children, read the articles I’ve included with the links. Ask all the pertinent questions of your child’s doctor and seriously consider this vaccine. I know there are many young parents who won’t have their children vaccinated, but think again. Please. You don’t want this cancer for your son or daughter. It can be prevented with the vaccine. But only if you get it early like they recommend as 11 or 12 year olds. Adults cannot be protected with the vaccine. HPV does not just “go away” either.

The American Cancer Society has a lot of information about it, as well as many other reputable organizations. https://www.cancer.org/cancer/cancer-causes/infectious-agents/hpv/hpv-and-hpv-testing.html

 

Anyone who has ever had sexual relations, even with only one partner, is at risk for HPV. You owe it to yourself and your family to get educated. Please.

Cancer sucks. The treatments suck.

Educating yourself is painless.

https://www.cdc.gov/hpv/parents/questions-answers.html

 

 

Olive Ridley Turtles on “our” Beach

Two days in a row we came upon turtles laying eggs and then going back into the ocean. To say it was a thrill doesn’t quite capture the feeling. Such a blessing to witness this spectacle.

I’ve written extensively about the Olive Ridley turtles in a previous post, but I now can add these photos.

Look closely and you can see the motion of the sand as she covers her nest.

 

There were construction workers who are building houses on the beach. They  came down to view this too with their cell phones out snapping photos. We were all enthralled and excited.

 

 

 

They lay their eggs, cover the nests and go back into the ocean. What a blessing to witness this.

 

 

The bad news is that people drive on our beaches. It is illegal to do so, but it doesn’t stop them. Also, this morning we found four new nests and all of them had been dug up. There were 4 Runner tracks leading to each of them. Disgusting.

Turtles have enough trouble surviving without these creeps digging up the eggs. Ugh.

 

 

 

 

 

Part XI: It’s the Little Things

 

We are getting snug in our bed in the trailer the night before his first dose of chemo and Greg tells me, “I want to show courage and be a role model for my sons as I go through this cancer treatment.” He is being so brave, and while he has not been reticent to share his feelings thus far, this sentiment still astonishes me. It takes me a minute to recover, and as I hold him close tears run down my cheeks.

Lying together, cuddling in the soft, warm sheets and heavy blankets Janine has thoughtfully used to make our bed, I have faith that we will come through this rough patch in our lives better than ever. Already we are seeing things in a new way. Cancer has opened our eyes to so many things we used to take for granted. The little things seem important now; such joy comes from those warm, soft sheets, the stars in the sky, the smell of coffee beans being ground. Thankfulness in the midst of cancer somehow comes easily for both of us. Maybe it’s the outpouring of love and support from our friends that fills all the empty places in our hearts with hope. There are so many blessings.

December 7, 2016. First chemotherapy treatment following third radiation.

Each of us have committed to certain tasks to ready ourselves, and we work in silence to get them done before morning fully breaks. I pack some snacks, our books, the trusty medical notebooks and we load up on warm clothes. We learned from our initiation how patients get very cold during chemo. The drugs have been refrigerated and when they go into the bloodstream he will most likely need a blanket. They keep the blankets in a warmer, so he’ll be nice and toasty, but I bring along his sweatshirt too. We both have on thick socks to ward off the chill. Sometime during his treatment I will take Isabela out for a walk in the hospital neighborhood, so I pack her leash and my gloves, scarf, and hat. The drawing that Lilly made is coming with us too. Deep breath. Ready.

Driving out of Mike and Janine’s driveway, Isabela thinks we are going to take her somewhere for a run, and that’s not what’s happening. Because we are going to the hospital five days a week for seven weeks, I start telling her on day one, “We’re going to take Daddy to the hospital,” thinking that she will get the drift after a few days and stop whining when we drive off everyday. It works after a few days, but not today. Her whining is annoying. Guess we’re both nervous. She settles down as soon as we get into the parking lot to wait for the ferry.

After radiation today we go to the 3rd floor–the chemo floor. The nurses are friendly, yet professional. They make us comfortable with their smiles, assurances and skill. The first treatment will happen in a private room instead of out in the open pod areas, for privacy they explain. Okay, let’s get this going. Greg looks pretty calm, but I imagine his outward demeanor is hiding his anxiety. He usually verbalizes his internal conflicts, thoughts, ideas. Today he is stoic. Neither of us slept very well, which has heightened our feelings of uncertainty. Greg rubs his lips, I keep pushing my glasses up, even when they aren’t sliding down my nose. The unease in my body makes my mind race, and I keep going over and over a check list of today’s possibilities. It isn’t my habit to play What if? That’s always Greg’s job.

Soon he is seated in the recliner and they have taken his vitals and accessed his chest port. Pre-meds have started. These are the medicines that will help his body tolerate the chemo drug, Cisplatin. They are anti-nausea meds, so we cross our fingers they will work.

Sweatshirt courtesy of dear friends from Colorado.

 

Greg holds Lilly’s drawing to remind us of home, and it provides him with Baja strength.

After an hour, I go back to the car for Isabela. It takes me a minute to don my heavy jacket, gloves, scarf, and hat. She is so excited and happy to finally be getting out, she is pulling on the leash. This is not what she’s supposed to do. Looks like I have some repeat lessons to give. It is difficult and painful for me because my shoulder is in such bad shape. I was supposed to get a complete shoulder replacement next month (January) at the University of Washington; I’ve been waiting for five months already, but both of Greg’s oncologists think I should postpone my surgery, so I have done that. The pain is getting so bad, but I am working on putting it out of my mind. When my dog pulls hard on the leash it’s not easy to “forget” my pain. My issue seems trivial though, and feeling sorry for myself will only give rise to guilt. Wishing to avoid anything negative, I promise myself to stay focused on how I can make things easier for Greg. It’s not always that easy, I’m human after all.

While Isabela and I make a tour of the neighborhood, I am lost in thought. It’s hard not to worry about things. Is our house in Baja okay? No break-ins? How is Greg doing alone up there in that room? How are we ever going to repay our friends for their help? Is the treatment going to work? What if it doesn’t?

Before I know it we are back at the car. Isabela jumps in and I pour her some water, but she isn’t interested. Apparently it’s not easy to work up a thirst in this cold weather and merely being walked on a leash. I leave the bowl full and return to my guy.

He’s got his eyes closed. Good. He’s relaxing. One chemo almost done; six more to go. Soon we will ride the ferry back to Whidbey Island with a contented feeling of accomplishment. One day at a time. One foot in front of the other.

The ferry on a nice day with Mt. Baker in the background.

 

 

 

Part X: Treatment Begins

Thanksgiving comes and goes. Ordinarily it is my favorite celebration. Somehow we don’t feel very festive this year. Our friends Mike and Janine already have family plans off-island, so we are on our own in their beautiful home. Though we have been invited to spend it with some other island friends, we feel the need to be on our own instead.

The quiet time is good for us. I roast an organic chicken with carrots and make mashed potatoes. Even though I don’t eat meat, only fish, I always acquiesce and have turkey on Thanksgiving. This chicken is a fine substitute, as a turkey is too big.

We give thanks for all our blessings and enjoy the meal together.

 

Knowing that Greg’s first radiation and chemo are right around the corner, we are nervous. Fear is part of it too, and not knowing exactly what it will feel like makes Greg apprehensive. Is it going to hurt? Will he have claustrophobia in the mask that he has to wear in the radiation machine? Will the chemo affect him right from the start?

It feels like a gas pedal is stuck and we’re speeding down the highway without brakes. It’s all happening without our control. Not good for a couple of control freaks.

The form-fitted mask is finished, his PET scan has been done, and his chest port and his G-tube are in place. The PET showed “activity” on his thyroid gland, mandating a biopsy. Another little procedure, but it turned out normal/benign. Whew.

This is the mask he wears during radiation.

I love my husband and am a nurturer at heart; I’m not afraid to be a care-giver. I enjoy learning how to use the gastronomy tube (G-Tube): how to clean the tube itself, keep his tummy area clean, tape the dangling part onto his hairy stomach, administer the so-called food (Boost…yuck) via syringe, and how, as an alternative, feed him that yucky stuff using a pump and hanging the bag of Boost on a pole so that it can trickle in. It’s not that difficult, but it’s important to  regulate the pump, and to avoid germs while working through the process.

The Kangaroo Pump

 

We won’t need to go through this G-Tube feeding rigamarole until he has trouble maintaining nutrition orally, so for now all we do is keep it clean by putting a couple syringes full of water through it daily. It’s not easy for Greg to accept this foreign contraption as a way of life. “It’s gross,” he tells me. Of course he’s right. It’s gross.

The first day of treatment arrives: December 5, 2016.

We rise and shine early to give ourselves plenty of time. Being punctual is of major importance to us all the time, but it is even more important today. Coffee is first on our list. The adrenaline I hate so much is already coursing through my veins. Adding a little caffeine will make it worse, but coffee is our lifeline right now. Neither of us can eat.

As we’re ready to leave we run through our check list: ferry passes, cancer information binder, protein bars, Isabela (our dog), dog leash, water for us and Isabela, coffee, books, yarn and crochet hooks (I’ve got to keep busy), jackets, mittens, hats, and our notebook. We also make sure to bring a special drawing done by a young girl, Lilly, who is the daughter of our friends, Sean and Dori. It’s a lovely illustration of the ocean and has the name of our little pueblo, Pescadero, on it. Greg wants me to take his photo with the drawing while getting his treatment. This way we can show her how much it means that she created it for him.  He considers it his talisman, serving him with power. He’s sweet like that.

The ferry ride today is a blur, but I get out of the car and go up to the passenger deck to get a photo as we travel to “the other side” as we call it. This is the first of 35 daily trips (Monday through Friday) for Greg’s cancer treatment. The first of seven chemo treatments, in addition to radiation, is in two days.

Treatment begins!

The technician holds Lilly’s drawing for me. I return to the waiting room and they guide Greg into the radiation machine.

 

 

 

 

 

 

To Dance is to be Happy

Los mariachis me hacen bailer

Bailer es ser feliz

La  música tiene un ritmo

Me hace tocar los pies

Bailer es ser feliz

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The mariachis make me dance

To dance is to be happy

The music has a rhythm

It makes me tap my feet

To dance is to be happy

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Don’t they look happy?

Part IX: Getting Ready to be Fried and Poisoned

Time Between Procedures

 

We head up to Greenbank Farm on Whidbey Island to let Isabela run and to enjoy our “free” time. Greg has appointments for getting his chest port and his gastronomy tube, but we make the most of moments we have beforehand. Being back on Whidbey Island is a lot like being home. You know that sweet feeling that you get from being home? We are taking this as a happy sign. Not enjoying the weather so much, but when there is a break from the rain and snow, we venture out.

 

Having Isabela with us is wonderful. She is devoted to Greg and he to her. Love is happening here. Probably the only thing bothering us now is how unsettled it feels to wait for treatment to start. It’s cold too. And we’ve been away from Whidbey for six and a half years.

It’s fun to see the fir and cedar trees again, but did I mention how cold it is? Brrrr. Greg is borrowing Mike’s jacket and I have some of Janine’s warm clothes too. The thrift store offered some warm things also, and we bought new boots and socks. Both of us had boots when we got here, but the soles came completely off the boots from lack of use. Apparently that is a common problem. Who knew? The sales guy at REI knew. He’s seen it before. We’re bundled up and Janine gave us an electric blanket for the trailer. We snuggle and try to enjoy ourselves. One morning we wake up to snow. It’s pretty, but it’s not what I had in mind.

 

We spend a fair amount of time inside Mike and Janine’s home. It’s so beautiful and comfortable. They keep bugging us to just move inside, but we are determined to give them (and us) some space. This is going to be a long haul.

Finally the day arrives when Greg has his chest port inserted into his chest. He’s in good spirits and he even gives me an uncharacteristic smile in his pre-surgery way.

 

He looks so good to me in these moments. Even with that stupid hair net. I’m so worried about my guy. I remind myself that visualizing a good outcome is paramount to success. So I see it. I see him healed even before the treatments start.

Too bad I can’t hold on to that image when I need it the most. The future holds a lot of heartache and despair. But right now we don’t know that. Our expectations are that because he is so healthy, he can do this without much trouble. We couldn’t be more wrong.

 

 

Part VIII: “You’re on the Red Team”

Providence Regional Cancer Partnership in Everett, Washington

 

At Greg’s first appointment we are given a red card, lettered in black, “You are on the Red Team.” We have a team! Yes we do. Included on the Red Team are the oncologists and all the people who will assist us including our scheduler, nurses (two of them), the ones who administer the radiation and chemo, as well as the physician assistant (PA). It is going to take a lot of teamwork to cure this cancer.

Dr. Saikaly is the chemo oncologist. He is a soft spoken man with a big smile and kind eyes.

He’s been at this awhile and he exudes confidence. The plan, as he describes it, is aggressive—35 radiation treatments and 7 chemo treatments. Radiation will be scheduled for Monday through Friday and Chemo on Monday after radiation. Dr. Saikaly calls it a double whammy, no holes barred.

Little do we realize how much of a whammy this will be, even though the oncologist describes in detail all the side effects (tons!) and we are overwhelmed. We are given a 3-inch notebook full of information with tabbed sections where we can add things as we go along. Everyone here understands that the complicated verbal information and directions will be lost to us as soon as we walk out the door. The comprehensive notebook contains everything we are being told and more. All the important Red Team names and telephone numbers are listed and we are encouraged to call if we have questions or if there is an emergency.

Greg will have blood tests every week. His first one shows a healthy man. All of the results read how you’d expect for a 20 year-old. Makes it hard to believe he has this life threatening cancer.

Next we meet with Dr. Little, the radiation oncologist. He is the younger of the two oncologists— early to mid 40s I’d guess.

His demeanor is opposite of Dr. Sailkaly’s. Dr. Little is very reserved, almost taciturn, and while he isn’t stand-offish, he isn’t outgoing either. He explains some of the same things that we learned earlier. Nobody is hiding the ugliness of the upcoming treatments. We are given another notebook, almost as huge as the first one, specific to the radiation treatments. We learn that Greg will be fitted for a mask. The mask is molded to his upper body and head, and will be screwed down to the table he will lie on, holding him still as he glides into the radiation machine.  A mask? What? Our hearts pound.

The following is from the Providence Regional Partnership Website:

The radiation is called TomoTherapy and is a new way to deliver radiation treatment for cancer. It delivers a very sophisticated form of intensity-modulated radiotherapy (IMRT), and combines treatment planning, CT image-guided patient positioning, and treatment delivery into one integrated system.

The radiation treatment is delivered similar to the way a CT obtains an image, by continually rotating around a patient. However, it’s not only capturing an image, but delivering a highly focused, intense beam of radiation to the cancer target area from multiple angles. TomoTherapy assists physicians in developing highly precise treatment plans with minimized side effects for patients. The Cancer Partnership’s new TomoTherapy machine is one of only 120 in the world.

This new technology is adaptive, and allows physicians to adjust and customize the size, shape, and intensity of the radiation beam to target the radiation to the size, shape, and location of the patient’s tumor. This benefits the patient by minimizing radiation exposure to healthy tissue. New images are also created every time the patient is treated to help guide treatment based on patient anatomy for that day, rather than for last week or last month.

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Both oncologists recommend that Greg get a chest port for administering the chemo and other meds, plus the port can be accessed for the weekly blood work. Rather than get intravenous pokes for seven weeks, making him appear to be a drug user, the port will handle everything like a breeze. It’s a quick surgical procedure. Also, both doctors strongly suggest that Greg get a stomach tube for feeding once his radiation treatments make it difficult to impossible to accept nutrition orally. Gross. Just gross. This doesn’t sound good at all, and Greg is skeptical.

Gastronomy Tube (G-Tube)

This is how they place it.

 

But it is important to keep up with nutrition to help fight the effects of the radiation and the chemo. Greg only weighs 174 pounds. At 5’ 11” that isn’t much weight. He’ll need all of it to stay strong. There are so many tests and procedures for Greg. He is taking it in stride–so calm. I’m usually the calm one, and now the roles have reversed.

The first thing Greg will have is the positron emission tomography, also called PET, and computed tomography (CT) which are diagnostic imaging methods used to find and assess tumors inside the body, and evaluate how a patient is responding to treatment.

From the website:

“The GE Discovery PET/CT scanner blends both into one—a single, full-body scan generates two sets of images, which are fused to show a patient’s anatomy and any hot spots of suspected cancer. A PET scan can be used to detect cancerous tissues and cells in the body that may not always be found through computed tomography (CT) or magnetic resonance imaging (MRI).”

A PET/CT scanner can produce 3-D multidimensional, color images of the inside workings of the human body. It shows not only what an organ looks like, but how it is functioning.They use a special dye (tracer) that shows cancerous activity if any, and we will know if cancer has gone somewhere besides his tonsil (metastasized). Greg is encouraged by this, because he says, right then and there, that he will forego treatment if they find it elsewhere. “Just like my father did when they found more cancer in his body,” he tells us.

Here’s what it looks like:

 

At this point, I’m visualizing a clean PET scan with all my heart, using whatever positive energy I can muster and I’m beseeching the Universe to make it so. It’s not so much that I don’t believe in God, I accept there is a higher power, I try to live like a good person, but I do not pray to God. Neither of us do. Many of our dear friends will pray for Greg (and me) throughout this journey, and this gives me hope. I admit it seems contradictory, but I do believe in the power of prayer, and I am grateful that others will be praying.

Next we go on a tour. Chemo is administered on the 3rd floor and there are many beige recliners scattered into pod-like areas. There are a few private and semi-private rooms as well, all outfitted with recliners. In one small area is a community refrigerator and coffee and some granola bars for the patients to enjoy. If you bring food or drinks that need to be chilled, you can use the refrigerator.

The large room is flanked on one wall with windows that have expansive views of snow covered mountains beyond the parking lot below. Every recliner is occupied. Lots of people getting treatment for cancer. More than you might imagine. Lots of people are knitting, crocheting, reading, talking, or just staring into space as the poison goes drip, drip, drip into their veins. We avoid their eyes because it makes us feel we’d be invading their privacy. There are nurses everywhere tending to the needs of the patients. They move with grace and purpose. They look you in the eyes, not with pity, but with empathy and understanding. Handshakes and smiles abound.

Our last appointments are with the financial adviser and the insurance guru. Providence is a non-profit and they have resources to offer patients with financial needs. We are offered help too, though we don’t accept, knowing that others need it more. This long day has been exhausting, but we are touched by the professionalism, respect, and kindness demonstrated by everyone we meet.

The scheduler, Abby, will call us about dates and times for the PET scan, chest x-ray, as well as the chest port and stomach tube procedures. We’re moving pretty fast, but the first radiation and chemo won’t be till Dec. 5th. We’re going to have some down time on our hands.

We’re suspending almost everything our lives are about in order to deal with Greg’s cancer. We’ve left our beautiful home by the beach and driven from the bottom of Baja to almost the tip of Washington state. In the process we have become vulnerable in ways we never dreamed possible. In the midst of fear and anxiety, small things, like a smile or a nice gesture, have the power to cause tears to well, not just in my eyes. In Greg’s as well.

We are more grateful than ever to our friends and family and our Red Team. We feel it is important to give back to everyone, including to those at Providence Regional Cancer Partnership. As the weeks go by we bring freshly baked cinnamon rolls to the women at the front desk and Starbucks cards to others we’ve encountered. Everyone has gone above and beyond to answer our questions, make us feel comfortable, and treat us with respect. “Thank you,” escapes from our lips constantly.

More than one million people in the United States get cancer each year. Whether you have cancer or are close to someone who does, understanding the facts can help you cope. We are getting the facts.

I cannot begin to speak for anyone who has cancer. Not even my husband. I can only share from the partner side of things, but I do have first-hand knowledge of the dedication demonstrated by the health care workers where Greg is treated. They are phenomenal people. Angels, every one of them.

 

 

 

Two Weeks after the Storm & The Bravo Market in La Paz

Once our clean up after Tropical Storm Lidia is complete, it’s business as usual. We’re working with Salvador at Baja Paperworks in La Paz to become citizens. After we meet with him we stop at the Bravo Market in La Paz to get Greg some bacon. I snap a few photos. Some better than others, but you get the idea.

Bones for Isabela too!

 

Pollo

 

We love the market with its vibrant colors and the rich smell of raw and cooked food. There are lots of choices when it comes to eating and there a lots of juice bars too. If you’ve never been to Bravo Market (on Bravo St.) you are missing some fun.

 

I wonder how you cook a goat head?

 

Ribs anyone?

 

Pretty as a Picture

 

 

 

On the way home from La Paz I get a photo looking through the truck windshield. Never mind the bugs on the windshield. Just enjoy the clouds and blue sky.

 

Which brings me to 14 September 2017

There has been a tremendous amount of turtle nesting activity on “our” beach in El Gavilan (south of Pedrito). It’s unfortunate that so many people choose to ignore the NO VEHICLES ON THE BEACH law. As if it isn’t hard enough for the little turtles to survive to adulthood. We mark the nests when we come across them on our morning walks. Thanks to the storm we have plenty of sticks with which to mark them!

 

Unfortunately, Lidia brought a lot of debris to the beach. Some of it is organic—tree branches, for example, and cactus. But those arroyos are full of garbage and it washed down too. Plastic is everywhere. A fair amount will be in the Pacific Ocean from this as well. So sad.

I remember how hard we worked to clean our beach after Hurricane Odile. Here we go again.

 

The ocean is still quite dirty. The green color in the water indicates this. These photos are from my walk this afternoon.

 

 

Look closely and see the green water in the photo before it turns blue. Green means it’s “dirty” water.

 

We are busy living their lives again, and tonight we are going to the new brewery in Todos Santos for their yummy fish and chips. Look for my blog post on the brewery soon!